The same old

Yeah everything is getting worse.
But what is getting worse is actually making me feel better for now.
But that won't last.
Each time it takes more to get the same effect as the first time.
Almost as if it were a drug.
5th time ever .
3 times this week alone though.
So what am I going to do about it?
Well what can I do?
There are a few options but they will just leave me looking like a lunatic.
And I really don't want to look like one of those.
So what am I going to do?
Nothing absolutely nothing.
If someone else notices then so be it.
I won't care but there is no way I'm going to say anything about my self.
And no matter what happens through and through just like in the past I will never do anything disruptive for attention.
And I hate it when someone else says other wise.
In fact I really really hate attention.
It is just so arrogant to want attention.
And you can become obsessed with attention.
And become someone who you're not.
All for attention.
And that's not who I  want to be.
I would rather have no friends than be completely fake all the time.

But we all live in our own beautiful lies.
Some peoples just happen to be bigger than others.

Seeya stalker
Love_just_another_bored_teen _trying_not_to_be_seen  22:26 1/11/2010





You know when you miss that one person and you know that you're never going to see them again. Right now I miss that one person I will probably always miss her. At times I maybe distracted by other things but at the end of the day I'll always think of her. I don't quite believe there is a heaven, but I would like to believe there is so I can meet up with those that are already gone. R.I.P Grandma 30/09/08
Grandma I will always love you and always have. Sometimes I feel as though you're watching over me.  Just as I feel right now. When I think of you I can still feel the warmth of your hug. I really miss you. I love you so much Grandma. I still expect whenever we go to Dunedin to see you. And it feels strange without you there. At Christmas etc... you were the glue that held our big family altogether. You know when I hugged you I could always hear your hearing aid beep. I know exactly how it feels to hug you and will always miss your hug and your everything. I just miss you
-Love Sarah
22:53 2/08/10

Yeah that was the second entry in that book.

Our injuries will heal as long as we're alive. But the scars will remain...

Allen Walker (D.Gray-Man)

So true....
Well seeya stalker
Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying not_to_be_seen
22:44    1/1/2010