Saturday, December 18, 2010

Well not sleeping

Well as you can tell I'm not sleeping at the moment so blogging instead.

Book~ well there isn't one sorry instead somthing I modified from my dA journal

APPEARANCE
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I’ve had/have braces.
[ ] I have more than two piercings.
[ ] I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.

EMBARRASSMENT
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

HEALTH
[x] I’ve gotten stitches.
[x] Broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I’ve had serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.

TRAVELING
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve driven / ridden over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Cuba.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[ ] I’ve gone to Sudbury.
[ ] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Florida.

EXPERIENCES
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been skiing.
[ ] I’ve been in a musical.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I’m single. ...
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[ ] I don’t believe in love

HONESTY/CRIME
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out.
[ ] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[x] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[ ] I’ve been arrested.

DEATH AND SUICIDE
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone/something dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[x] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

MATERIALISM
[ ] I own over 5 rap CD’s.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collected comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie

RANDOM
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] Don’t kill bugs/don’t like to
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[x] I love spam.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I like white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] All my answers were totally honest

PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[ ] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic

FAMILY -
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

RELATIONSHIPS -
[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY -
[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

BAD TIMES -
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I’m addicted to self harm.
[ ] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[ ] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] I’m at my thinnest
[ ] I’m at my biggest
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[ ] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[ ] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x ] I’ve thrown food away
[x ] I’ve spat food out
[ ] I’ve taken diet pills
[ ] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’VE DONE -
[ ] Weed
[ ] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[ ] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[ ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Other
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[ ] I have a diet blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[ ] I collect thinspo
[x] I’m doing this for me
[ ] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself

And another thing straight off dA

As we look forward to a new year let us remember this year.
---------

This year has been a lets just say a b***h to a whole lot of people.
Is it just me or is the world becoming a worse place to live in or is this just called growing up and face the music. In this year there have been a whole s**t load of disasters bp oil spill, earthquake down in Canterbury, a few tsunamis thrown into the mix and the haiti earthquake those just name a few.

This year has been a pretty s**t year in someways but not all of it.


For the top 10 of 2010 you can go to [link]
That link up there reminded me of some that I too had forgotten.

Isn't it funny as soon as there is another disaster we forget about one of them either the latest one or the earlier one, actually it isn't funny it's sad. =(

Wishing everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year.

I hope next year is better.

Seeya Sarah =)

Even though I have put this up I hope no-one notices it...

Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen_
03:33  18/12/2010

Friday, December 17, 2010

What's the point?

Book~

We all have different reasons for living. And these reasons change my reason for living at the moment is to see the future. When I'm older if I manage to get into university and med school I will live so that I can help other people. I reach my goals. 
There are heaps of reasons for not living but you have to keep in mind all the good reasons.
Yay no sleep for me =P

-Sarah          23:22           24/09/10

How so much has changed looking back at that.
My reasons are pretty much gone.
Whats the point?

Religion, ideology, resources, land, spite, love or just because... No matter how pathetic the reason, it's enough to start war. War will never cease to exist... reasons can be thought up after the fact... Human nature pursues strife.
Paine (Naruto Shippuden)

This world is suffering along with everyone in it.
The thing is not many can see that.
And if they do what do they do about it?
Most will do
Nothing

Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
23:35       17/12/2010
 

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Another Post

You know this is just another post.
But you never know it might not be just another post it might be more it might be less.

Anyway 
Book:

You only realise what's important to you once you nearly lose it. Or it's gone. For example you can't appreciate something if you have never lived with out. it. Things such as clean water never in my life have I had to have unclean water so I don't think about it when I have a glass of water. Seeya later..

-Sarah         22:00          23/09/10
You know just reading a few later entries in my book.
And you will/ might see them here
Seeya Stalker

Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
23:16      16/12/2010

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

+_+

Book~

Needs and wants. Need is something necessary for survival. Want is something that improves or makes life more comfortable. The thing is you have unlimited needs but very few resources. Your amount of resources can depend on your life style and so can your wants for  example you don't see someone in africa wanting an ipod . They probably just want something that is a need like water. But here we don't even think about it. If we want it usually we can save up and then get. Which costs money.
TODAY AT MARKET DAY I GOT TO TAKE HOME $95 yay for money.

-Sarah              22:07            22/9/10

Sorry short post typing when I probably shouldn't be.
Seeya stalker

Love,
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
23:55             15/12/2010

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Ugh

Man it only take a long time of something pissing you off everyday.
Till you get sick of it.
If I have any stalkers reading this don't worry it isnt you.

But man I am so sick of putting up with all the shit and that.

Yeah I don't see why I try bothering.
Becuase it won't matter I will be out of your life very soon.

Family? Let me tell you what kind of link I have with them. They are just lumps of meat linked by hatred and murderous intent.
Gaara (Naruto)

Well I always find it funny how the quotes tend in someways reflect my views.
But maybe that's why they end up here.
Man I need to find that bit of paper otherwise I'm in trouble. (With myself)
Just so I can finish some self assigned homework.

Yay =D 

Oh yeah no book to day seeing as I already have blogged this morning.

Seeya Stalker,

Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
22:15     14/12/2010

LIke

Like I have said I'm stupid.
I'm stupidly staying up when I know I should.
I'm stupidly not doing the right things.
I'm stupidly thinking about stupid things.
I am stupid.

Emma and maybe Hope I know you might read that.
But to be honest I don't care I just had to write it down.

And if you do see it don't acknowledge it at all.
In fact forget all about it thanks.

Book~

Money is used for almost everything in this world.
I hope I make some tomorrow at market day.
Yay for money I love it but have none.

 -Sarah            22:57          21/9/10

You know I have half a mind to tell and half a mind to not.
But either way 
It is still a dangerous game I play.
And for that I am so so sorry.

Sorry to whom at this point I don't know.
But I am sorry
Sorry for everything.

Love,
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
01:08             14/12/2010

Monday, December 13, 2010

A post

Book~

Do you humans have any point in this world. I believe we do but we have ignored our reason. And instead of maybe helping the planet we are causing more damage to it. Name a good hting we have done. Okay now take that and think what has caused it. And the answer is most likly us. You don't see any other species destroying anything as much as we do. Yeah we're becoming more aware with some stuff and taking action
But what is the cause...

-Sarah         22:01            20/9/10

Shit.
I'm stupid.
About  so many things....

Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
23:22                 13/12/2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Short pos

Book~

I think this world is quite sad we produce enough food for everyone to eat in the world  yet millions are starving and millions are getting fatter. the poorer countries are getting poorer and thinner and the richer countries are getting fatter and richer. The world is insane. I mean come on is there any point in us humans?
I'm kinda not really loving it <3
-Sarah 22:28              19/9/10

Yep short today

Love,
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen
23:45           12/12/2010