Sooo

Yesterday

Adults

I'm not sure how much they know at the moment but I'm starting to get suspicious. What I mean is stuff like cooking breakfast in the morning "because I have a big day"  it's nice and all and then making sure what I put in my lunch .....

As much as that is nice it's making me feel guilty as I know they can't really afford to have someone else living off their budget and what with me not eating some of it.... It really does make me feel guilty as. But it means I won't feel sick right? Anyway not eating gives me a sense of achievement I don't really know why but it just does. And I know it's not healthy but I did try but nothing changed :/

So not much to say got a really busy day no time ;) 

Meeting with principal discussing hiring of staff xDDD form time 

Library duty interval + lunch

Guitar lesson After school

Karate after school

Yay busy busy busy!!!!!!!

Love Sarah

So life goes on

So anyway life continues although I mostly wish it didn't ..... 

Arms hurt like bitch but it's my fault my problem so I will just have to deal with it. So last night I did it again but deeper and more and when I went to bed I couldn't sleep because of the pain and once I did. I kept waking up although that did help me get to school on time as I woke up at 4:47. lol I actually thought I was running really late when I woke up xDDDDD But was 17 mins early and i walked in the rain today and then went to supermarket to get some first aid supplies just incase. 

Some of my friends keep tugging at my arms which really does hurt but I can't complain can I? It's not their fault and it's not like know soo..... 

I really wanna tell Claire's mum (stage name) about her cutting as it could get a lot worse but then it could back fire majorly. And I don't really see that I have any right.... But I'm going too I think... but if she were to tell about me I don't know what I would do as I'm so busy at the moment and I really like being busy. That and I'm scared.

Got to go home now seeya

Love 

Sarah

So life goes on

So as much as I wish it didn't life still goes on...
My arms probably have never hurt as much before and the worst thing is it's all my fault ....I mean it was my choice .... choices they change our lives they can be the difference between

Normal

I decided to try and finish of this blog before I can finish off some other things so back to awhile ago and here is the ...

Book~

To get what I want right now I'm going to have to work hard for it. Whether it be money, grades or fitness. I am going to have to work hard. If I want a good career. I will have to work for it. In ten years I could have my medical degree but somehow I can't see my life past 17 yet I can imagine everyone elses.

-Sarah            22:50      14/10/10

Funny thing is I still believe most of it yet now I can see a few more paths but is it better to see the worst possible road to take and not really know if you are on that path. Head to a nasty collision? I don't believe I am on the worst path but I know I'm on one of the not so good paths.

Well I have to go do some work.

And I can't believe that's how I used to think just under 6 months ago when I still lied in the book as well as everywhere else.

Love Sarah