Just..

I felt  shit yesterday thats all i guess it's starting to catch up but i felt fine for a while at least... everyone is fucking leaving :'(

Just

I felt shit last night guess everything is catching up again. Well that sucks everyone is leaving .... :'(

Classes

Hi there I'm back again not much has been going on and I'm not sure if that's a good thing. I'm no longer in one of my classes at school I'm not really allowed as I'm failing and it's better for me to go in a class where a teacher can help me with my other classes.
Cya :)

So...

Times are kinda are changing, urges still come and go. Exams came and went. Lol just yesterday. I finished mine for now I failed most of them but hey. Life moves on. It truly does but the memories remain. Of what I have done and so do the scars. Only have relapsed once and that's when I was really down so I guess that's better. I decided on Saturday I would like to look in to Jehovah Witness's Religion. And I am now organising bible study with a family friend. Which is looking better.
I have my first meeting with my counciller on thursday, my doctor suggested it she know as do the school counciller and one friend that is about the suicide attempt. I still probably will someday in the future but not using that method. And I don't think in the near future.

My dad has gone nuts maybe he swears that the goverment and illuminati came through the house and took photos of everything. He was high though.... And he see's and hears other things so we think he's schizophrenic.

Bigish post love ya,
Sarah

Fail

Well i tried and ended up throwing up all day :/
That was tuesday won't be trying to end it that way at least :|
Bye

Sup

So I got real close and i mean real close to doing the deed on tues only thing that stopped me was an test after school funny aye? not really will do sunday thou i'll be alone by then

Bye

So I'm using this account to publish stuff as it easier?

Whats been going on with me tash died last week which was really hard even thou I only knew her pretty well.... And I went to her funeral yesterday ... been less SH thou because I have a full life ahead of me . well thats what I think when I'm on a positive note I guess .. bye

Sarah <3

Meh

Telling more people which has been hard but worth it. :)

Meh

Telling more people which has been hard but worth it. :)

Whats happening?

Is it getting worse? I can't tell you
As it gets worse I fake more
I lie more
I pretend more
I scar more
And I hurt more
More than ever
And it's going to kill me
But that's alright
But its not

So can you tell me?
The truth?
The way out?
Can you tell me?
My lies from the truths?

No you can't
Because if I can't
How could you?


So anyway I'm at my dad's surrounded my dangerous stuff for example there was a hole container of blades. He won't miss one will he? oh well it's really sharp :) god I'm a nut I actually am I'm a suicidal nut. But thats alright for me it is damn need to buy panadol :) Why am I putting smily faces everywhere :( That's more like it isn't it?

Anyway night :)

Got to stop faking :'(