Hello there

Hey.

It's me again.
I probably won't be blogging for a while seeing as exams are coming up. And I probably should be studying.
But I can't help worry.
What if I don't pass?
All those questions are coming up.
All the what ifs.
I'm getting really sick of the cat and mouse game we all seem to be playing.
Every single one of us has our own problems.
I Know I've got mine.
I know you've got yours.
We all do.
But it's what we do about them that can change the outcome of our problems.
Some are bigger than others.
Yes I know it isn't fair and all of that but life isn't fair is it?
No it's not.

Why is it no matter what there is always someone who gets left behind forgotten?
Is it because we would rather it Do we subconsciously forget them to make sure we aren't the ones forgotten?

I still don't know what to do.
But do any of us know?
Well it been fun.
But I gotta get going.
Actually I'm not going anywhere but mum's gonna get pissed if I don't.

So
See ya later stalker-san
Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen

Here

Here I am blogging again surely blogger must be sick of me by now....
Not that you care on fanfiction over 180 stories added to my favorites .

Hey just so you know I'm also on twitter, deviantart, youtube and fanfiction and I will put the links up soon. For those..
Anyways looks like my whole weekend is going to be lovingly devoted to doing homework this weekend.
Oh what fun there is to be had. I guess I brought it upon myself for not studying at all.
But I really really want to get into science plus. And the top maths class. (Only 30 kids from our year group of 200 will be in this class actually even less.)
So if I manage to get into those subjects I will be really happy.
But I know if I get in these.
My workload will be a lot higher. And there wont be anymore slacking off in class *gasp* But next year I wont be able to slack off no matter what I do....

  But hey it's for our amazing future in our dying world.
  For some reason I can't see myself past the age of 17 yet I can see everyone else's.
Maybe it's because I don't believe deep down that I will exist past that age.
But life goes on even if for one person their world their world comes crashing down around them.
The said thing is in this world someone you knows world could be crashing down. And you may never realize.
But that the truth of today's world.
Isn't it sad?

Seeya stalker
Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen

So...

Hey there
I'm posting again I seem to go through cycles of blogging heaps and getting sleep deprived.
Maybe they're linked. Maybe? Sleep deprivation and going on blogger in the middle of the night.
Omg karate was crack up. So here's what happened.
We were saying some words in Japanese not the politest words you can say in any language. And one of the guys Josh overheard us AND understood perfectly what we were saying.
Well what can I say that made an awkward conversation. But blame the Japanese transfer students teaching us those words. =P
At the moment just thinking about how much trouble I would get in if mum found out about....(everything) D=
I'm tired just to put it out there. Well I guess that is to be expected.

I really am an idiot aren't I?
So .... what should I do because I'm not really me. At least in the sense where wanting to be everything I'm not.
Which is going to be a problem isn't it?
So far this blog has a lot question marks now doesn't it?

Hey

Just wanted to say a few things
I know my last few posts have sounded pretty sad.

So here a not so depressing one
I hope at least
I have got amazing friend who are all very smart funny and talented each in their own unique way. That is a good thing right.......
School this year has gone a lot better a lot less missed assignments. Horray
Ive made AND kept a bunch of really good friends ILY guys
At the moment I'm back in touch with my dad and sister which I guess its good but not sure if its worth it =/

Our house will be getting renovated soon which means we wont be in the house for a while and hopefully before long our house will be better and bigger =D

I've managed to sort out quite a few things.
(in my head)
I think I might be back on the road to being fit and active I HOPE AT LEAST AT LEAST
I've got myself a bikini now just need to gain some muscle so I can wear it ;)
Some of the things I have figured out that I want to achieve slash get are:
1) Contacts
2)Good grades
3) Be fit and healthy
4) Try to remain happy and calm
5) Talk less / let others talk more (im trying have cut back a bit already) =P
6) Eat healthy
7) Help around the home even if me and my mum don't get on at all I can't always be a parasite
8) PS2 + games plus other material items
9) Start my cat feeding business


Hopefully I can achieve most of these goal by FEBRUARY THE 2ND the day after we get back to school the day I finally turn 15 OMG I just realized something I forgot to put on that list here it is 10) Drivers license

Most of the things on that list can be interlinked for example if I set up cat feeding that could get me fit as I run around to the different cat feeding places and that would also get me money to buy the other stuff I want. Goes on imaginative rant on all the stuff I want and me having it

But if I want any ANY of these things I have to work hard for it by myself. Because I'm sure as hell not going to be given any of these by anyone. The sad truth about life.

Oh yeah the good grades part links into what I'm going to say next EXAM DUH DUH DUN Yep I said wrote/ thought it.
FOr the good grades one that I can start now because I'm going to need good grades because if not *shudders*. There are only to exams I have permission to fail those are Chinese and social studies because I'm not going to do them next year so they don't matter I don't really care about the Chinese exam because unless I study excessively long and hard I have no hope in passing.

But for the other exams I want to give it my all. Which means trying my hardest. This year will be the last year for my carefree attitude.
So that will kinda suck.
Oh well it will be for the best. Wont it?

My friends are awesome and ILY ALL (as friends don't get your hopes up)

Seeya stalker
Love
Just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen

Fml's of this week.....

Well number
1) At my dads I suggested a walk as in a flat short one but no it turns out to be an hour and a half + (FML)
2) My dad gave me a laptop bag yay but then he gave me my DS bag with my cards in it which i had been looking for, for 8 months or more (FML)
3) Me and my mum fight more than any one and now we're both pretty much counting down the days till I leave (FML)
4) I've realized how fucked up this world is (FML)
5) In this fucked up world there isn't any point in us humans is there? (FML)
6) God this is starting to sound emo (FML)
7) Life these days isn't worth living (FML)
8) This world is so fucked us because of us humans it is beyond repair in so many ways (FML)
9) I moght actually be going slightly mental maybe possibly (FML)
10) I'm just sick of all the bull shit in my life (FML) 11) I think actually I know I really really dislike my mum in so many ways but still shes my mum I guess.......... (FML)





(12) Well this turned out pretty true still many things left unsaid and probably will never be said (FML)

The paths we take maybe be similar to others, we may walk very similar paths but our reasons may be very different.
We may take these journeys with friends, family or just by ourselves but even if others go down the same path we will never have the exact same one from start to finish. From birth to death. For you never have the exact same memories as someone else or have come from the same journey start point.

Along these journeys you may met people lose people but no matter what you will always gain the memories from your own journey. Good or bad smart or stupid.

Sorry about the wait if you waited for this post that is....

Will write again later. Disclaimer if you tell anyone else about these posts I WILL COMMIT MURDER SUICIDE well not really but I would prefer others not to know about this ie parents thanx

sorry for my posts for not being *cheerful* or *happy* I try not to blog this sort of stuff but I always seem to end up doing it anyway (FML)
well seeya Stalker-chan love
just_another_bored_teen_trying_not_to_be_seen